Can I?

Assalamualaikum.

Last few days aku baca Kak Sophie punya blog pasal pengalaman dia jadi archi student. Dia kata masa interview dulu pun berapa ribu yang datang nak apply jadi archie student dekat UiTM tapi yang dia nak satu batch 30 orang je. Serius aku takut gila. Aku ada terfikir, macam mana kalau aku tak dapat? Aku nak jadi apa kalau takdirnya aku tak dapat jadi something that I've always wanted dari darjah dua?

Tapi bila fikir balik, mesti ada rezeki aku dekat mana-mana kalau aku betul-betul ikhlas nak jadi architect. Rezeki Allah dekat mana-mana. Firman Allah;

وَمَا مِن دَابَّةٍ فِي الْأَرْضِ إِلَّا عَلَى اللَّهِ رِزْقُهَا
“…… dan tidak satu pun makhluk bergerak di bumi melainkan dijamin Allah rezekinya” (Surah Hud, ayat 6).


  Aku yakinkan diri aku, I'm gonna be among those 30 people, or I will be at overseas studying architecture. Aku yakin rezeki Allah akan ada untuk aku.

Cakap pasal studying abroad, duluakuI nak belajar dekat Curtin University of Technlogy, Sydney. Bila tanya kawan aku yang pernah duduk Sydney, dia kata Sydney takdelah sejuk mana. Main reason aku nak study abroad besides sebab nak belajar ialah sebab aku nak rasa four seasons. Haha gediknyaa anak mama ni. Yelah aku ni bukannya budak kaya yang boleh jalan overseas ikut suka hati. Nak study jauh-jauh mestilah nak tempat yang worth your money and experience, kan?

Curtin University of Technology, Sydney

Jadi lepastu aku fikir nak study mana. Aku budak MRSM. Kitorang ada some sort of mock interview. Macam try rasa pengalaman interview lah. Lepas aku terdesak nak fikir nak universiti mana, aku acahlah nak Cardiff University, UK. Tapi hati aku macam takde dekat situ. The night before interview, aku tukar lagi, aku nak masuk University of Liverpool, UK. Aku taknak masuk tempat lain selain UK. 

University of Liverpool, UK

Masa hari mock interview tu, aku dah cerita-cerita semua. Aku kata aku nak study dekat UK sebab aku fanatik Harry Potter, nak belajar dekat Hogwards, tak wujud. Aku kata dekat interviewer tu, "I will be very sad if I can't fulfill my childhood dream, that is to study in UK." They nodded.

Masa wrap-up session, dia kata, "Number three (I was candidate number 3), you've did well. But you have to be realistic. There's very rare, in this period scholars want to sent students study in UK as our currency is very low. It's almost impossible." Aku rasa nak menangis. Yup, aku tahu fact tu tapi aku degil sangat. Aku cakap dekat diri aku, no worries, anything can happen in a year. Sekarang kau belajar je elok-elok. Aku cakap macam tu sebab I am not a bright student pun in school. Pointer 4th semester aku baru-baru ni 3.49 je. Nasib baik graduation nanti dapat first class jugak. Alhamdulillah. :) Tu pun cukup-cukup makan.

Apa-apa pun, aku harap yang aku dapat nak jadi architect. Kalau orang tanya kenapa aku nak jadi architect gila-gila sampai aku masih tak fikir back-up plan sampai sekarang, aku akan jawab, "I'm passionate with arts and buildings. I want to make the ecosystem and people plus the buildings live in harmony. Construction don't really need to cut off all the trees, it just you have to know how to make them stay together. A good architect designs the future, whether it become a good place for a living or not. And I believe I can be one of the great architect, as I would like to see buildings and the greens stay together."

Lots of Love,
Keen.